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POY 3 01.06.04 - 5:37 pm A Pieces of You Entry. Unsent Letter- Is there somebody in your life, past or present, that you have something to say to but you never got the nerve to bring it up? A secret love? An apology? Or maybe you hold some resentment or secrets that you wish you could share with them. Dear Kimberly Dawn Taylor, This has been on my mind since Wisconsin. I got the news about your mom being diagnosed with cancer through a letter you had sent me [I still have the letter!]. I felt really bad and started crying, along with my mom. I think I called you afterward. I also remember praying for you and your mom. When I heard that she died not too long after, I felt horrible; probably not in any comparison to you though. I can’t imagine ever losing a family member, especially my mom. When I heard the news, I wished that I was there. Hell, I still do with that I was there. I wish I was there to comfort you. I wish I was there, or my shoulder at least, so you could cry on my shoulder. I wish I was there at her funeral. I wish I could have been there. Just in Glenpool would have been great. I wish I could have sent you flowers. I wish we could have been there to help you cope with your lose. I wish I could have been there through your mourning. That’s what sisters do. They are there for each other and I wasn’t there for you. I don’t feel as if I should be your friend for that. I feel like the worst friend anyone could ever have. Now I feel like I owe you something. Like something between us isn’t complete. I don’t feel like I can ever been a good friend to you. I feel like that you are mad at me for not being there, seeing as how we’ve been best buds since kindergarten. I’m mad at myself for not being there. I don’t like it, not one single bit. See, everyone else was there for you, except me. So, I’m sorry. I’m sorry for all the fights we ever had. I’m sorry for being a bad friend. I’m sorry for not being there for you. I’m sorry for not being there for your family. At this instant I am sitting here, crying, thinking about how I still owe you something, anything! Even my life would do great. Kim, I’m sorry. God, I’m sorry. I hope you forgive me. I love you and thanks for always being there for me. You don’t know how much I appreciate you and all you do. I love you so much. Jessica Lynn Wood
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