I think Courtney and I are slowly slipping away from eachother. The more I think about it, the more I'm...well....okay with it. I know that sounds bad. I still love her (as a sister you know), but things like this happen.
Of course I don't want it to happen, but things do.
She's been hanging out with Tom, Katy, and Meredith a lot more than she has with Crystal or I.
To be honest, it hurts...a lot. It sucks to feel like you're losing one of your best friends that you've grown up with, done everything with, told everything to, and just been there for and her for me.
I don't want it to happen, but I think it is.
Now I'm not saying that she can't have other friends; don't put words in my mouth. I just don't know.
I feel like, in the long run, she'll change her best friends. It'll no longer be the Three Old Ladies. It'll just be Crystal and I.
Maybe that's what she wants though, but I don't know. Maybe she wants to change and get away from Crystal and/or myself.
Is it something I did? Is any of this my fault? Or did Crystal do something?
I just don't understand how someone can just drop their best friends.
I don't know.

miles of fire

Previously:
here - 02.01.06
boo. - 11.03.05
leaving. - 07.16.05
lovely - 05.07.05
Perfection - 03.12.05